This blog came to be because I used to enjoy writing, and I had a lot to say, even if some of it wasn’t terribly interesting. I let this blog peter out because I felt it had served it’s purpose and my inspiration had moved in other directions. Now I’ve decided it must be revived to serve a new purpose. It’s not that I enjoy writing anymore, in fact, these days there’s very little that I enjoy, and this is the point. For unknown reasons, my world has darkened. This confuses me, because although I’ve seen others go through this, I’ve never had it happen to me. It’s a mysterious phenomenon to discover that nothing sounds fun anymore. It’s puzzling to notice that, though you used to fill your days with new, exciting things, you suddenly don’t even have the energy to get out of bed and get dressed. It’s like someone holding a big gray pillow over my mind, suffocating all the emotion and life out of my days. I’m finding myself frantically trying to find ways to distract myself from this mood, shake myself out of this state, but it doesn’t feel like something I can control. It feels like something is holding the exit shut.
Before I take the chemical approach to halting my downward spiral, I thought I’d try to break myself out of this funk in a natural, less invasive way. I’m working out, adjusting my eating habits, learning new things, and I’m starting a Gratitude Journal. Each entry will be about one thing for which I am grateful. In doing this I will be taking time every day to appreciate the wonderful things in my life. My constant need for material to write about will keep me constantly thinking about things for which to be grateful. In addition, this need will likely force me out of bed and into new situations, where I will meet people, and learn more about the world and myself. I thought this blog would be a perfect place to record this experience. Knowing my gratitude journal is public will make me more conscientious about keeping up with it. And perhaps, if I do a good job, it will provide encouragement to a few world weary, web-surfers that accidentally stumble onto it someday! If I don’t do a good job, at least I can still consider it a good use of time for this world weary web-surfer.
Here we go!