It’s now been over a year since I’ve had a job. It wasn’t a thrilling job, nor was it in a field I enjoy, but the loss had a huge detrimental impact on my self esteem. Part of this might be due to the fact that I still don’t understand why I was fired, but… Continue reading value without value
Author: Lela
Don’t think I won’t bite you
It’s beautiful and sunny outside. My first trimester is over and my nausea has faded into a whisper of a suggestion. I’m slowly but surely reclaiming my house from the two long months worth of mess that accumulated while I whiled away the hours moaning and gagging and wishing I were dead (ok, a bit… Continue reading Don’t think I won’t bite you
Change
Change is notoriously difficult for me and always has been. My mother enjoys entertaining friends and party guests with stories about my struggles with change: how upset I was when my little brother was born, how I cried at the end of Kindergarten. The fact is, I cried at the end of pretty much every… Continue reading Change
Chores
Yesterday was full of stress, sadness, and fear. The fact of the matter is that almost everything in my life, and the life of those I love, is up in the air right now. While the view from up here is lovely, full of excitement and possibility, how can I enjoy the view without also… Continue reading Chores
Opportunity
I haven’t written in awhile. This is for many reasons. The best reason is that my computer broke, and, not to be outdone by a mere laptop, Ben’s computer followed suit. Unfortunately, this is still not a particularly good reason, because we replaced these computers with a sparkly new, dazzlingly beautiful Mac several weeks ago… Continue reading Opportunity
People who make eye contact
People who are not shy, and never have been, don’t seem to understand the affliction. I get the impression that many people blessed with a naturally outgoing personality think shy people are choosing to remain silent or making a choice to remain outside the group or deciding they’d rather not make any new friends. Of… Continue reading People who make eye contact
ipod
Since purchasing my ipod a little over a year ago, I have gradually become so accustomed to the warmth of the headset, and the wonderful cocoon of my own private soundtrack, that to leave the house without it now feels akin to leaving the house without my pants. In fact, as I walked down the… Continue reading ipod
BART
BART is often responsible for my presence at gatherings of friends and family in the Bay Area, since I do not have a car. What many people don’t know, however, is that BART might be responsible for my entire existence. My maternal grandfather was an engineer and he relocated his family to the Bay Area… Continue reading BART
David Bowie
Monday morning I could not force myself to wake up. Sometimes my bed doesn’t seem so much like a flat surface as a huge, bowl of marshmallow fluff. I can spent hours trying to scrabble up the slippery sides, but I always ended up sliding back down into it’s soft, dark depths. I found myself… Continue reading David Bowie
Swap Meets
Today Ben and I went to a swap meet in Oakland. I’ve been to swap meets before, with their eclectic booths filled with half empty boxes of puppy pads, unidentifiable pieces of ancient technology, and gaudy, chunky jewelry that only a giant, 70 year old women would wear with any sort of sincerity. They are… Continue reading Swap Meets